I can’t believe it has been over 11 month since I’ve had my little one, who by all means is not so little anymore (sad face). It’s so overwhelming to think about all I have gone through this year or I should say in almost one year with my baby. There were so many hard times and amazing times and there still are. I will say I have NO IDEA how single moms do it. It is a major wake up call. I have a whole new outlook on single moms, people with more than two kids, especially so close in age. You ROCK! YOU my friend are a super hero! It is not easy.
I love kids, I always have and I always have been great with kids in general but yes when it’s your kid and they are with you 24/7 (except when I’m working) it is no joke. The sleeping thing, ha! Forget it! I’m not sure when I will ever get sleep again, I have pretty much given up. We have good nights and not so good nights and I will take that but when my baby is not feeling so good and we get a couple nights in a row of not sleeping, I’m pretty much useless. I don’t function properly and I have just learned to accept that. It’s temporary, I remind myself. And it is temporary. All these things are for such a short period of time when you think about it. Your baby will grow up and then they will act like they don’t need you anymore, more independent, no more hugs, no more calling mama for everything and that’s actually sad. 🙁 It makes me sad to think about that so I hug him and kiss him all the time, he actually does get annoyed sometimes and whines but I don’t care, I have to take advantage! lol I encourage all moms to take advantage! Just think about it when the going gets tough, it helps you get through those harder moments.
Anyways, here I am though almost 12 months later, I still have those last 10lbs hanging on for dear life. I don’t get it. They said that breastfeeding helps you lose weight but I can’t seem to shake it off. I have no time to work out and if I do have a moment I am tired so I don’t wanna. I eat pretty healthy but I like cake and ice cream. What can I say? At least I was able to button my pre-pregnancy “fat” jeans because I was already heavier when I got preggo. But lets not get carried away, I said I was able to button them, that doesn’t mean they looked good or were comfortable. I guess I will get there some day. I know I will. I don’t care too much, although I should, but I don’t because I want to have another baby rather sooner than later so what’s the point?
By the way, who knew how hard it would be to keep up with this blog! GEEEEZ! I mean I thought it would be easy to just sit down and write. My creative juices are starting to flow a little better these days though so maybe I can do better this time. I hope you all stick around. I feel like this is a lot like a diary for me, to look back on, and I like that I get to you share it with you.
Well stay tuned because I will be doing Ezra’s cake smash photoshoot later this month and then of course the big first birthday planning has begun!! See you soon!