Welcome to week 35! I’d just like to say that I have pretty much given up on pants at this point. I mean its August, its summer and I live in NJ, so at this point I can’t do it anymore. Thank God for dresses AND those little short shapers I can wear underneath so my thighs don’t rub together because that hurts pretty bad especially when its 100 degrees and humid. Yuughhh!

Now, back to a more serious note. Last week I talked a lot about my home birth plan and the midwives I’m working with and all of those things. Also, a few weeks ago, I talked about my glucose levels and how I was technically not diagnosed with gestational diabetes, but because my results were so borderline, I needed to check my glucose levels daily (4xs / day). With all that being said, I was told that if my sugar stays regulated, then I should still be able to follow my birth plan and do a home birth. So for the last month or so I have been following my diet for the most part and checking my sugars and most of them are beneath what they are supposed to be, but there are days when they’re not. This has raised some red flags for my midwives because even though they are extremely pro home birth they still have to accept responsibility if something were to go wrong, so they have to help me make the best decision for ME.

All of their home birth patients go to an OBGYN that they partner with at the hospital and they send us there for a second opinion as well.  They really do cover all of their bases, and to have a home birth you really need to have a “normal” pregnancy with no issues. With that being said, I was told this week that I no longer qualify for a home birth. 🙁 Those of you that know me, know how upset I was when I found out. I mean, I cried. I cried, but I accept it. At the end of the day, the only thing that is really changing for me is scenery. I can still have my natural water birth at the hospital, just not at home so that still makes me happy. I completely understand the risks of having borderline gestational diabetes and I want me and my baby to have the best care possible. When a baby is born to a mom with gestational diabetes there are many risk factors such as the baby may be too large to pass through the birth canal or the baby’s pancreas may be working overtime to produce large amounts of insulin since it won’t have the mothers’ sugars, so the baby’s sugars can drop and he can have breathing problems. So if any of these things were to happen, being in the hospital makes the most sense. I obviously want my baby and I to be safe and healthy and at the end of the day, I will do whatever it takes for that to happen.

Naturally, I feel a little disappointed though and like everyone says, sometimes your birth plan doesn’t go as planned and that’s ok. Gestational diabetes is not something you can really control–it’s really hard, even with the diet because your sugars are never going to be “normal”. Basically, you are just trying to keep them in a decent range. Thinking about it too makes me feel that my midwives really know what they are doing and that they really do care about you and your baby’s safety, so I am truly grateful to have them by my side.

As far as a future home birth goes,  good thing I plan on having a second. 🙂 My midwives assured me that  if I go into my next pregnancy more prepared knowing I can have high glucose, and if I eat a low sugar diet from the beginning, I can try this again. I am hopeful, but right now I am concentrating on this little one coming out safely. <3  I can’t believe I have 5 weeks left. Feels like an eternity.

Also, I cannot wait to share with you my maternity shoot photos. They should be done in a week or so. Stay tuned!!